Will The Real Phil Hudson Please Stand Up!

Wow, Life is just nuts!
So once again I find myself coming to a crossroads in life. I don't know why I have to be so retarded when it comes to important decisions.. but it seems I am inept in those areas that can allow me the greatest success in life. Be it girls, business, social things, physical well being, I just seem to fall flat on my face every time. I feel like the "Teenage Dirtbag" Weatus sings about. I can't get the girl I want, and the ones I can get.. I just confuse and cause emotional trouble to. I guess that is just how life goes though. I know I have to make that change and when I do.. it will work out better.
I have learned recently that I'm a very lazy person. I have a goal to overcome this by striving to do my best in everything I do. I think that will help me achieve greater success in the long run. I know that being a great man, serving others, and loving with my whole heart are very important.. but I find them hard. I lack in the qualities that make those things possible, or I am to scared to apply them fully. Who knows where Life is taking me, I only hope that I am up for the challenge and can get it to work for me, instead of against me.
Happy days though! And cheers to everyone out there who is still going in the face of adversity!
Much Love!